Nobody’s Plan B

“I ain’t nobody’s plan B. Either you choose me, or you loose me.” -Adande Thorne (aka Swoozie)

If you are in a friendship where you are giving and giving, with nothing coming back to you, as yourself one question: Is it worth it?

You see, I have never really had a ton of friends. I more have had few really great friends and a lot of acquaintances. This hasn’t been an issue, until now, when all the greats are gone. Yes, I still talk to them, and yes I am trying to reach out and meet new people, but it is different. Every time I put forth an effort, and try to be a friend, nothing is returned. Nothing.

So, as I have been graciously advised to do, I advise you: Do not care about people more than they will ever care about you. If you are being treated poorly, then get out. You do not need that in your life. There are better people out there who will love and care for you in the same ways that you will love and care for them.

Here’s to the great friends! They are hard to find, but once you do, they will never let go of you, and you of them.

Only When They Fall

“You’ll only see the stars when they fall like rain.”

After discovering a new song, I tend to blare it for hours on end, for several days, until the newness fades away. Right now, I am listening to Netzwerk by Klangkarussell and it is helping me get out of this slump.

Right now, I am questioning everything.

Where should I go? What should I do? Who should I be friends with? How on earth is this going to work? When am I going to find happiness?

So, as I sit here in bed, I think things through and contemplate my options. The songs, like Netzwerk, help me to clear my mind and start to release the bad energy cooped up inside.

So, here’s to music and its therapeutic abilities!

Who needs those people when you have music?

The Shut Down Store

A few days ago, while traveling to a restaurant to eat out with my Uncle Jim, he recounted a story of a store which had gone out of business. Little did I know that this would be downright hysterical!

The store’s name: Furnish It.

Yep. Furnish*t.

I busted out laughing while recounting the story to my parents. Then, when we were pulling into my apartment complex, my brother said something which could be used with the S-bomb. (Typically my family and I refrain from swearing…)

Anyways, I had to take up the opportunity, so I said “Oh Furnish It!”


Here’s to Furnish It! And here’s to clever names! I wish it was still open just so I could shop there…. Oh well.

Whilst Covered in Milk

Today, my second day of work at a campus dining all you can eat facility, I showed up 5 minutes early and for the next five hours it was non stop. Anyways, my position is called a host. As a host I restock dishes, clean tables, mop, sweep, prep foods, refill drink machines, and do whatever needs to be done.

Since it was Saturday, it was especially busy. Right from the moment I walked in I was running around the facility trying to make everything happen. About 15 minutes in, there were several complaints about the milk machine being empty. Now, refilling these machines is not easy. There are 6 bags of milk in boxes and there are several steps to take in order to make the machine function properly. Including lifting the box back into the machine which is pretty dang tall.

Well, during this ordeal of replacing all 6 milks, my best friend’s ex-boyfriend came up to me and gave me a very awkward side hug. First off, their relationship ended poorly and secondly, this kid is the same kid who gave me a cold shoulder whenever I would talk to Claire and he was around. But that isn’t even the real kicker. He got my name wrong. Yup. True story.

On that note…

Here’s to insanity at work! It happens to us all at some point, but when it comes we shouldn’t panic.

And here’s to crazy things happening! Storytelling is always fun. haha

P.S. I have now had this blog for 365 days!

The Long Awaited

Life is hectic. Change is hard. Growing up ain’t for sissies.

This past week has been sheer insanity. Not only have I traveled hundreds of miles, but I have moved into my new home for the next year. Also, I found another job (which starts tomorrow) and have blown through hard earned summer paychecks. Needless to say, it is a little crazy.

This moment, of being moved out, was one I looked forward to with much excitement and anticipation. Now that it is here, I feel nervous and hesitant. At one point I even considered dropping out and going home, then I remembered that besides my parents, there is nothing for me back in Oregon. Of course, like after every mental breakdown, I find a sane resting point, which I am glad to be in.

So, if you are like me – freaking out about something which isn’t a big deal – take some deep breaths, smile, and just take it as it comes. YOU WILL BE OKAY!

Here’s to life’s crazy times! In 10 years, the big deals will seem like little things.

Waiting for the Signal

When participating in a track meet, a swimming meet, or even The Kentucky Derby a gun fire signals the start of the next few seconds or minutes of your life. The moment when the gun goes off can be frightening, relieving, or even unexpected. In the end, it marks a beginning, a time when you can fail, be average, succeed, or blow everyone’s expectations out of the water.

The gun fire which will mark my next adventure is the start of a car. It will be tomorrow morning, maybe even before the sun rises. No matter what, it will be the beginning of my new adventure!

Yup! You guessed it! I’m off to school in a different state, time zone, and elevation. Now, let’s just say that I’m a little nervous, but then again, who isn’t? Thousands of kiddos just like me are leaving home and heading out to some distant place feeling the exact same way I am.

So, in the end, here’s to starting! It just takes one signal and you’re off!

To the Finish

As this summer comes to a close, it seems as if my to do list has quadrupled. Not only do I need to earn those last few paychecks, pack my entire life into two suitcases and a few small boxes, and gut out my entire room only to stow it away, but I have to create some sort of mental stability, and maintain sanity as everything changes.

That’s right! I’m going off to college in less than a week! Moving in after the next 9 days! And starting school just after Labor Day! Let’s just say that these single digit numbers are making me gain a more serious perspective.

About three months ago, just after graduation, I was saying, “Oh my goodness, why is summer passing so slowly. I just want to move out already!” Now that summer has FLOWN BY, my mind cannot wrap around the fact that before the month closes, I will be starting the craziest adventure of my life!

So, if you are worried about what lies in front of you, just realize that there is not much you can do to control what happens. So, take some deep breaths and jump in! You will be alright. God only gives you what you can handle.

Here’s to adventures! Whether big or small, they can causes anxiety, but you will be okay!

How Are You?

The typical response to the question “How are you?” is, “Good.” Sometimes this is done to be polite and other times to avoid any further conversing.

Although you might think that it is harmless to say “Good.” when you are experiencing difficulty or are in a time of trial, couldn’t it also be considered a lie? I know that talking about life’s issues is awkward especially in business situations, but if you are willing to lie about how you are doing, then what else are you willing to lie about?

This simple question is a canned everyday occurrence, but that doesn’t mean your answer has to be too. Take the time to figure out your real answer and don’t be afraid to open up to people. There needs to be more open honesty in the world.

Here’s to being honest with yourself! And here’s to realizing how you truly are doing!

+ positivity + or – negativity -

Sometimes it is easy to be a proton. Sometimes it is easy to be an electron. Sometimes it is easy to be a neutron.

That being said… sometimes it is easy to be positive. Sometimes it is easy to be negative. Sometimes it is easy to be neutral.

Depending on the situation you are in, you will fit into one of those three categories.

Now, on the regular, I try to be more positive, but stress comes and anxiety builds and I find myself slipping into the negative side of things. This by no means justifies my actions. All I am saying is that it happens to me.

So, when you find yourself down and out and there seems no help at all, turn to something you love and find the positivity that you need.

Here’s to being positive and working to maintain it! It is hard, but by no means is it impossible. So cheer up, (insert your name here)! Things happen, but that doesn’t mean you have to let them affect you.

Bubbles. Bubbles! BUBBLES!

Preface: Yes, I am 18 years old and this is a true story.

The other day, while at work, my boss gave me a battery powered handgun machine which produces miniature bubbles. She insisted that I test it out. So, after inserting the batteries which were included, I pulled the trigger and miniature bubbles spread everywhere. It was fantastic.

Now, that was all I was going to do, but then my boss said, “Now, take a break and go run around and play with the bubbles!” So, what did I do? Took a break, ran around, and played with the bubbles! No questions asked.

That being said, not only do I have the coolest boss in the universe, but I played with bubbles! It was stress relieving and very exciting!

Anyways, this reminded me that sometimes you have to set aside the crazy things in life and just play with bubbles!

Here’s to letting go for a little bit! And to the maker of that bubble machine! It is awesome!